SELF IMPROVEMENT

Business madeleine mccann  KATE MCCANN believes a note in a restaurant reservation book led to her daughter Madeleine's abduction, she has revealed.

The three-year-old was snatched from the family's holiday apartment in Portugal while the McCanns and their friends dined in a tapas bar.

But Kate's request to book a table near the apartments because the group's children would be alone inside was written on a reservation book left in full view of the public.

As she went to Mass at a church near the family home in Rothley, Leicestershire, yesterday, details emerged of her shock at finding the security lapse at the Ocean Club resort in Praia da Luz.

In her book Madeleine, she recalled: "This book was by definition accessible to all staff and, albeit unintentionally, probably to guests and visitors, too.

"To my horror, I saw that, no doubt in all innocence, the receptionist had added that we wanted to eat close to our apartments as we were leaving our young children alone there and checking on them intermittently."

Kate discovered the blunder while reviewing Portuguese police case files after their investigation was shelved.

She fears a kidnapper could have been tipped off that Madeleine and her brother and sister, twins Sean and Amelie, were alone in the apartment on May 3, 2007.

Kate, 43, also revealed she felt suicidal in the days after Madeleine vanished. She said she had an "overwhelming" urge to swim out into the sea and drown herself, adding: "Somehow, inflicting physical pain on myself seemed to be the only possible way of escaping my internal pain."

Her husband Gerry's ability to "switch off" and hide his feelings seemed almost callous to her.

Kate also revealed that she and Gerry had slept in separate beds the night before Madeleine disappeared. She was angry he left the group's dinner table "abruptly" - at 11.50pm - to go to bed.

Kate also told how a mental health patient was arrested trying to break into the family home.

But she said they have no plans to move because "I want to be in the house where Madeleine lived so if we found her it would be familiar to her."

It emerged yesterday that violent Scottish paedophiles Charles O'Neill and William Lauchlan were quizzed in jail about Madeleine's disappearance.

The pair, from Largs, Ayrshire, were touring Spain and possibly Portugal on false passports when she vanished.

They were jailed for 56 years between them last year for carrying out sex attacks on children and murdering Allison McGarrigle, a mother who threatened to expose them.

O'Neill resembles a thin, spotty suspect seen in Praia da Luz shortly before Madeleine vanished.

German child killer Martin Ney, 40, is also being questioned. He looks similar to a a man seen holding a child minutes after Madeleine was snatched.

Ney is also being quizzed over three child murders and 40 attacks.